Child birth is a beautiful thing as so many would say, though your personal experience is yours and not mine
I will say though that this fear of yours may have to do with the idea of child birth more so than actual child birth <3
Maybe there’s an insecurity you have? Insecurities often cause us to look to the future because the fear they create. Maybe finding out what the insecurity is and giving it attention will help you <3
Obviously you are afraid of losing someone you love though as so many have said before, it is only an illusion.
We are all connected through love.
Love never dies